
July, 12 2019
Your Cousin Nicholas Vidal joined you in heaven please welcome him home, he is with you and his mom and dad, a very sad day, please show him around.I have Grace with me this weekend, she is beautiful I will post a
a picture of her, I have not been on here for a long time because I do not want to cry..I miss you, I always will, things have changed family wise, I moved into a apartment with Brandon and I think I told, you Mike had one more son and Sierra will be having a girl in Sept, I will post some new pictures, of Grace and family, it is sad today,but I know you all will welcome Nicolas home, I hope you all are happy, no pain, Uncle Jimmy grandma Pauline has no more pain, and now you can celebrate Nicolas arrival, he loved God, he has 2 beautiful boys . Grace is beautiful you would be so proud of her, she travels the world with Jamar and Natalia, though things have not been to good between him and I am so happy that he is taking very good care of her, and he will have his hands full now that she is a teenager, because she is beautiful wow we and that is all I want is for him to love her and protect her, he is doing a good job so far, what else could I ever want in the absence of you,as for your Dad I we are done,but we talk because of you guys because deep down we still love you all, but it is time I moved on because your dad has, I do not want to be alone in my old age, in which I have my grand babies to keep me busy, and I pray to God, that he with stands me from feeling lonely, your sister Cheyenne is going through some stuff please watch over her, they think about you, we always do, I still include you in celebrations,but I am getting tired or maybe it is old age but never get tired of thing and missing you..ISometimes I feel numb, or I feel like I am walking through a storm,but I do not feel anything, I feel like God has closed up my emotions and I do not know what is worse not to feel anything, or to loose it all, life goes on, but it will never be the same as if this tragedy never happen I think about it, but it does not consume my thoughts like it used to..I still can not sleep good for the last 10 yrs, it's worse, it scares me at times, but it is life and God never said it would be easy